HAPPY SWEET 19TH ALIEN!

just look at your smug and indignant face! i know, life's great being 19!

to my dearest baby alien,
baby! HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! you're finally joining us in the club to old age and spinsterhood! haha i'm just joking baby, you know you'll prolly be the first one out of all of us 3 to get married, have kids, and invite us over for hari raya lunches. :) you're 19 and we're celebrating your birthday is less than 24 hours (i can hardly wait) and i am so proud to declare that we've been celebrating all 3 of our birthdays together for the past 5 years! we've had our ups and downs, but we've made it so damn far! just one more year to the big TWENTY! really hope this is the bestest birthday for you because i know you've got the present you've truly deserved. your beloved haikal baobei LOL (gosh, am shuddering as i type that). so anyway, remember that claire baby loves you lots and with many many birthdays and years to come!

p/s: for your birthday, i send you an infinite supply of condoms and a blow up doll :)

forever and ever,
pig :)



-fuck, it's 3:41 am and i stil can't sleep and i have to be up at 10!-

westside

i found myself a westside homie! and that person is nic! yay!!! :) it's a good thing when the rest of my og mates are like east siders, and not so cool when majority of them have halls. -shakes head-

so anyways, i had driving today and i think i drove pretty well apart from the fact that i almost knocked someone down. well, it wasn't my fault! that dude was crossing when it was green light and he didn't even bother to look around! my instructor was so shocked he had to jam super hard on the brakes. hurhur, bet that must have been the most exciting time of his life man. so he continued to tell me that he was very shocked that upon seeing the man crossing i did not bother to reduce my speed and i simply told him i didn't think that guy was stupid enough to cross during green light. :)

after driving, i headed down to bukit batok to meet nic to go to queensway! he wanted to get shoes, and i wanted to get fbts. so yay, bused down and there went through queensway in a very systematic and methodical order making sure no shoe shop was left out. think we took 2 hours or so to comb that little mall. yay i got my nice kueh tutu again! :) the price differences are really big, like 20-30 bucks difference so luckily we walked through every shop or we would have been cheated. anyhow, kiv-ed a lot of stuff then we went to ikea for lunchner.

we had poached salmon and the meatballs, talked about union, sports, and every sort of camp, made some racist jokes, then continued bitching about people. laters, we went back to queensway to get our stuff. oh guess what? we got temporary tatts. hurhur. and that's all i'm going to say about it. -_- i saw the prettiest pair of nikes and the cutest pair of adidas shoes ever! the adidas shoes was like cartoon theme, and it even came with stickers with fairy princesses, castles and frogs that you can stick on it. i want!!! but i don't wear sports shoes :(

he is so rich can, bought himself adidas shoes and sandals and i only got pathetic shorts. urgh. what a long post, time to summarise. afters, he accompanied me back and then home sweet home.

have matriculation tomrrow. horrible

school vibes

i seem to be waking up later and later everyday. great, just in time to get me all geared up for school. today, i woke up at 5 and boy did i feel good. could have slept even longer if i wanted to actually. met mich and her 2 og mates for dinner later and it was just random chit-chat with arts people (the faculty i would have been in if not for lady luck and God's grace).

went back to her place after dinner after a stroll and we had our insecurities talk alongside school and random stuff. so i got an sms from my ogl. i'm separated from my og friends, from xiuli and from anyone i know. awfully tempting to boycott oweek now. cos i'm back to being sad and alone boohoo. :(

i wish school didn't have to start. the process of making friends all over, emotionally and mentally torturing. hopefully, all i get is nice people. i have driving tomorrow and hopefully, i'll be able to wake up, and finally, get past stage 2.

byebye.

p/s: please leave your name when you leave comments. anonymity is not a good thing at all. :)

claire loves big brother

honestly, there really isn't much to blog about. my whole life revolves around big brother now. the past 3 days have been spent watching the entire season 6 of big brother till 7 in the morning. in fact, i'm only blogging cos i'm waiting for the episode to load. yes, i know i have no life but big brother is seriously the best reality show ever. screw survivor, it makes bitchy look like petty child fights at the playground.

now, big brother is the real deal.

on another note, my emotions now are a twisted warped tangle of knots that really leave me stuck in reverse. to make headway only to realise progress was never really progress to begin with but just a reflection of the light of which i'll never obtain really sucks. right now, i think i'm just starting to accept things for what they are cos maybe, people never change after all. (you don't have to get what i'm saying cos i'm ranting)

this week is officially my last week of fun.

saturday

so today is saturday. it's hard to make mental notes of which day is which anymore, especially when i've regarded every day of the past don't know how many months of my life as a saturday. so courtesy of ng ziluo, i know today is saturday. shall make it a point to keep track now that i have people constantly reminding me that school is a week away. ("thanks a lot!")

i was in town in the afternoon, and i bumped into a lot of people today. famous faces, non famous faces, but majority if i had a choice i would avoid. i shall not comment about my afternoon at all. (i will not, i will not) the best part about it was i bought 3 chocolate buns from the nice japanese bakery at lido and ate them all up by myself :) -beams-

met ziluo up later at harbourfront for late dinner/supper. i always eat when i'm with him (very bad). bought some sins chocs at staff rate (yay!) and then we had new york pizza. cheese fries and a large queen's pizza. OMG am getting super fat. not good when rest of the world is shrinking into 2d. not good not good. need to sign up for planet fitness immediately.

i have this sudden urge to do a post that can only speak of outrage and outbursts. but i'm so lazy to. maybe tomorrow.

simpsons!

i don't know why but i'm so tired. i have been yawning the entire day despite waking up at 3. wonder how i'm ever going to go to school at this rate man. so anyway, just got back from vivo with prata baby! we met to watch simpsons which is super duper damn funny. as a matter of fact, one feels like watching it again!

pigged out again today. finally got to try resse's peanut butter cups which are like so overrated. dinner later was tim sum and a butterfly, whilst she had very oily but nice prawn mee. i finally bought my sugar biscuit sticks! yumyum

what a crappy post.

dinner with the whites

back from dinner. which was a white affair with MM's friend from the states, her half white son, and MM and I (we're both white too). OMG totally pigged out. thanks to me, me and MM were late for the dinner whilst the mother and son waited for us at sakae sushi.

been soooo uber long since i had sushi and we had raw salmon, sushi in all forms, baby octopus, teriyaki balls, baby octopus, soft shell crab and a lot of things. MM and her friend talked about stuff whilst i chatted with half white boy about random stuff. laters, me and half white boy (who shall know be known as HWB) went downstairs to get bubble tea and kueh tutu. so went back up and ate kueh tutu and continued shoving sushi in my mouth.

wasn't too bad, HWB was nice to talk to and it wasn't awkward in the least. bought little jerry's cookies later which i'm finishing already and guess what? a miracle of the highest order happened. MM gave me 50 bucks when we were home. for nothing. hoho, this has never happened before. am elated beyond elated.

will think of ways to spend that money. which isn't going to be that hard. heh

b-o-r-i-ng

i am super duper tremendously bored. there is absolutely nothing to do at home. and then again, there is nothing to do out either. i town so often, as that is as exciting as the most exciting place in singapore can be, i sort of have a routined strategic methodical way of moving around town, and just as i find the shopkeepers and their stuff (which hardly ever changes anymore) largely familiar, i'm sure they feel the same way about me too.

as always, woke up at 3-ish, and decided to watch i now pronounce you chuck and larry. if you don't know, movie hasn't even come to singapore now and is already tops on the US chart starring adam sandler and i can't forget the other dude's name but he looks suspiciously like vince vaughn, though he isn't. okay anyway, albeit the not so good quality of the movie (slightly blurred, loud american laughter over the funny bits, and scenes with people standing up), movie was good, funny and entertaining. can always expect humour intertwined with sappy, heart-warming family flick when it comes to adam sandler.

so go catch it when it comes to singapore cos it's really good. am supposed to be going for dinner with MM and her friends later but am still very lazy to go get ready. hopefully it won't be awkward or i might just barf my dinner out. am very planless for the next few days though. ask me out pwetty pwetty pwease?

will blog more about the dinner laters. au revoir!

i wanted to but

i wanted to tell you about my day, about how i went for my chest x ray, and then spent the later part of my day in town. i wanted to fill you in every single nitty gritty detail about my day.

but then, on the news around 9 it was reported that the taliban has already killed off 1 south korean despite their promises and negotiations. then i realised, compared to this, how i spent my day is really insignificant, really.

please continue praying. praying really does create miracles and miracles are just what the south koreans need right now.

just me and my homie, tyra banks

one spent the WHOLE day at home. clap clap clap for me. this is life. waking up at 4 30 pm. not moving from the bed and watching america's next top model the whole damn day. great success! cos one has finished america's next top model cycle 8. HAHA! THE cycle 8 that hasn't even come to singapore. this is by far one of the best seasons with the prettiest girls, the bitchiest catfights, and the nicest black girls. hurrah for mah homies! :)

on another more morbid and not so happy note, please please please do pray for the 23 kidnapped south koreans who've been kidnapped and their fate is still held in the hands of the terrorists who will only unleash it in an hour's singapore time. they're actually christians there on a mission trip and they consist of teachers and nurses who were there to help in the afghan hospitals and schools. i don't think people like that deserve to be cruelly matyred for their faith. PLEASE PRAY! a lil' prayer will truly indeed go a long way.

will keep this short, just in case i decide to blog again later. so, laters!

one has too much time on one's hands

i woke up today with a shock at 12+ in the afternoon. this is amazing considering the fact that i only slept at 6+ in the morning, and by my usual standards, i would still be half-dead at 12, only waking up at 3 or 4 in the afternoon. i woke up cos i had a sudden thinking that OMG DO I HAVE FREAKING DRIVING?! and after checking my schedule, i did and i totally forgot about it. so thank God (literally) for that shock that woke me up or i would have totally donated 60 bucks to BBDC not out of goodwill.

the best part was, i woke up just in time to do everything. get ready (we all know it takes me forever to get ready), run down to pasir panjang post office to update my pdl (which was surprisingly deserted at lunch time hour), and then cab down to bbdc (even though i highly suspected my account balance is $0 ), and best of all, was actually 20 minutes early giving me lots of time to stare at random people and call mich on the phone to talk cock.

my instructor today was female. and i was totally stressed by her way of teaching, i didn't dare move faster than 20km/hr, to which she kept shouting "jia you jia you!", jia you as in increase the speed and not encouraging me ( -_- ), cos it was a 70 km/hr road. hurhur, compare and contrast, total 360 degree change from my usual self with my other instructor who said my "driving was siao" and to which i replied "uncle, relac can", lol.

afters, i met em baby and we went down to queensway to walk walk, had the tutu kueh which was super duper nice, esp the coconut! laters, queensway got boring so we decided, ok actually, i decided i wanted to watch a movie so we headed down to tiong bahru instead, and you won't believe it but it actually only screens 4 movies, 3 of which we've already watched, and another stupid chinese flick with jaycee chan (eww!) with it. no wonder the ticket counter was pissed empty.

decided not to declare ourselves so desperate to the point of inflicting torture on ourselves by paying 7 bucks to watch jaycee chan's fugly face for 2 hours, so instead, headed down to get japanese oatmeal muffin fresh out of the oven, and old chang kee, yumyum, for bites to munch on along the way back to my place.

chilled out at the clubhouse for a bit and then baby went home. ok, right now, i'm busy conjuring plans for my tomorrow but all i can think of is home, unsweet home cos i'm tired (impending period highly suspected to be cause of issue), and urm, very tired. ok, am crapping, time to stop. tata!

this is a special sunday and i am gandhi

one didn't go to church today! have been up up & early collecting good karma instead! under the masterminding of francine, headed down to econ nursing home to help out with the old folks. it's really a great experience really, makes me think about how i disregard and overlook every minute aspect of my life, when other people actually find it so hard to come by.

these old folks, they don't see the world. enclosed within the four walls of the home which radiates heat and smelling of dried air and mould, with the only consolation of the silent constant drilling of the rusty bronze swirling fans beating overhead. nicholas actually asked the uncle i was in charge of what he does in the home everyday. and you know what the uncle replied? he said, "nothing much, just eat, sleep, and wait to die". now how morbid is that.

we took them out to giant at vivo to shop and it was pure simple joy for them. 10 bucks for their shopping (which my first reaction was, so little buy what?), and yet the happiness derived from the smiles radiating on their faces said a lot. the uncle couldn't stop saying thanks to me and he told me to go back and visit him, and tell the black people (that would mean indian helpers at the home, haha), that i was looking for him, mr chua seng giap. :)

took them out for fresh air at the viewing gallery too and it's only then i realised just how much i take for granted. the sights, my freedom. everything.

you should really try it sometime, it's really a very self gratifying experience.

on another note, one has finished harry. spoilers for you if you piss me off!

do you feel the magic?

i do! after waiting for forever, finally collected my harry potter and now that the hype is over, i haven't even started on the book yet. haha. anyway, em baby met me to collect harry with me. today is "meet the commonwealthians day" man. bumped into sinkuan and then neo shiwei.

this is getting boring. shall summarise. em baby sent me back then i met mich and we went back to her place to watch scream 2. that's all. am very distracted cos harry is peeping out at me from my bag.



i love my tee shirt. THE LORD IS MY NAVIGATOR! :)

jesus is my miracle worker

my prayers, he listens,
my requests, he answers,
those wounds, he heals,
those scars, he bears
how can i ever doubt,
the wonders of his miracles?

impossible is possible with God. :)

reserved day for the boyfriend

after a week of not meeting up, one finally met up with the boyfriend today. had the day specially marked down for him and harry potter. cabbed down to get him first before we headed down to cine to get tix for harry dearest. yahyah, we are very laggy i know.

before the movie, had time for a lil' stroll so guess where we went? -no prizes for guessing!- TAKA FOOD FAIR! YESSSSSSS! *orgasms on the spot and lets out a satisfied smirk* we had white chocolate japanese donut (which tasted suspiciously like white hello panda), blueberry yoghurt, a giant pack of sushi and gogo sausage balls (black pepper, satay and cheese!). OMG save me! the sausage balls were so not good, even their sausages are so much better!

so anyways, harry potter was sucky (expected), harry has a nice bod, the weaseley twins are super cute and urm, basically, i conclude director is non-racist cos movie had a lot of black people. i always knew black pple had magic in them! (refer to 50 cent's magic stick) lol, okay, i know i'm lame. guess who i bumped into after the movie? JEFFERSON AN. almost died on the spot. same oily greasy hair stuck to face. i swear he never washes his hair man.

dinner hunting later, and cos nice chicken rice store at far east was closed, we had mini soon kueh at scotts instead. and being the pig that i am, we went back to the taka food fair AGAIN. lol. this time, had icekimo ice cream which i swear, is amazing. i couldn't decide on the blackforest, tiramisu, strawberry cheesecake or blueberry cheesecake. but in the end, decided to let the boyfriend have his way for once, and so it was the tiramisu.

you know what heaven is? it's actually something like this:



yesyes, so please go try!

decided on an evening stroll to at least burn a blueberry off, and later, em baby sent me home. yay. ok, one had a fun day today. fingers too fat and heavy to type anymore. i leave you with pictures!



collage



us



and again



solo

and finally, i leave you with the most amazing picture of the day. you will never, ever, look/think of harry potter in the same way anymore man.



HARRY POTTY!!!

one has become a puffer fish after all that fish

one is VERY VERY VERY bloated now. super duper full and my stomach feels as big as those emanciated third world kids suffering from malnutrition and beri beri. one finally met up with my two favouritest girls in the world today: prata&alien (yay!), been super duper long since i met up with all 3 of them so i really really miss them! (awwww...)

so anyway, cabbed down town to bugis to meet alien cos prata was late (what's new). said hi&bye to her beloved loverboy haikal before attempting to shop for prata's jumper (copycat) at the village. finally, managed to find a super nice grey one (thanks to me of cos), and after much persuasion, managed to convince them to walk to town to burn those pre-dinner carbs off.

turns out, plan was a failure cos ended up gaining more carbs getting bubble tea along the way. luckily, have super strong self-control to resist getting youtiaos and butterflies from the rochor beancurd stall. afters, strolled around ps (boring!) and played mario cart together which was really really fun. they both chose mario and i had yoshi the dinosaur.

dinner was at MANHATTAN FISH MARKET!!! yay! finally after forever! the long awaited wait has finally come to an end! we had the grilled catch of the day, onion soup (we love onions), manhattan fish platter (which consisted of mussels, butter rice, fries, grilled prawns, fish fillet, and calamari). OMG i swear the prawns were the best man. they're like coated with this super yummy special sauce! i was practically orgasming on the spot man(i swear! ask them!).

haha, anw was a great catchup session over shitlaughs and giggles whilest tricking the alien to eat all the rice by herself. afters, decided to walk to town to burn those post-dinner carbs off (unsuccessfully) and had a lot of "die die scenario games" which were super duper funny. especially the lesbian ones. LOL

bumped into many people today: steffi and joanne, sam, augustine and ena who loudly exclaimed that i am a bimbo in front of the whole world. bitch.

ok, one will try to not think of taka food fair tomorrow since one is on very fat mode. damn. MM just walked into my room and said "i have a chocolate bun for you".

GREAT, JUST GREAT.
hmm, think i will go to the kitchen now to see what sort of bun it is.
JUST. look.

a vacant affair

woke up late for my meeting with ziluo and immediately sms-ed him telling him i'm going to be late only to have him reply "i've been at wcp since 2 pm". and then i checked the time and it was 3:10 pm. great. so one had to rush and get ready at an impossible speed and then hurried down to meet the man in red waiting for me at my bus stop.

took a bus down to vivo later where we had lunch at carl's junior, did a lil' present shopping for his sister's birthday, attempted some shopping myself which was a failure since the gss wasn't exactly a gss and there were no sizes for me, some sweet shopping at marks&spencers where i tried out custard&rhubarb sweet which was gross cos it has carrots and grapes. like seriously, who puts carrots and grapes in sweets?

went to look for jillyan later for a little update of her life and camp and shit. bumped into reynard at vivo too. afters, did some tidbit shopping at 7-11 before catching vacancy. turns out, it's not such an ulu movie after all cos the theatre was quite filled. pretty good thriller i must say and kate beckinsale is very very hot. i used to hate her when she started out in pearl harbour (cos she was a betraying bitch to josh hartnett) but now, i must admit she's grown hotter and hotter (have started developing this mindset since click when she nagged at adam sandler in very hot shorts and nice brown curls).

so urm, if you're bored, go watch vacancy. nice show. called a cab later and in the cab, uncle was super talkative telling us about his exploits with his customers such as "drunken monkeys" and rude koreans and then laughing to himself at his totally unfunny jokes which we were both totally uninterested in. -rolls eyes-

oh anw, thanks bff for the kit kat surprise! i refused to buy the strawbery kit kat cos it's so damn overpriced and not worth it but i didn't know he actually went back to buy the kit kat for me w/o me knowing! :) am happy happy happy!

not another emo post (ignore please)

have you ever been so low? low enough you've cried till your heart wrenches and you feel it twisting every artery and vein into untangible knots? till your eyes are bloodshot, swollen and puffy? till your nose is entirely blocked you have no choice but to breathe through your mouth? till your cries are so hoarse and furious they don't sound like cries anymore but painful wheezing of the lungs and animalistic growling of the throat making it raw and sore?

i have.

have you ever been so low? low enough to feel that life just isn't worth living anymore? till you've actually mustered the courage to go to a stairwell, look down at the many levels below, and tell yourself, over and over, that pain is temporal and one jump is all it takes to end that excruciating pain that's driving you insane?

i have.

have you ever been so low? low enough till all you care about is yourself, and your pain. so painful that you don't mind overlooking the embarassment and crying in sight of others all because you want them to feel your pain. and hopefully, share your pain? till you think you've cried so much, you can't cry anymore, that you're numb and immune to all other form of pain, because nothing can possibly compare to this pain you're feeling?

i have.

have you ever? after all this time, wondered deep down why you've gone through and put yourself through this pain at all? only to discover that that pain's never left you all along?

i have.

the walk to not so far away

hello everyone. i woke up today really happy cos i am able to walk for more than 30 footsteps. hurrah! still slight swelling but at least the power to walk is there. am therefore declared no longer homebound, and am truly alive, and kicking (literally). yay.

one's sleeping pattern has been overturned for good man. woke up around 4-ish today, shall not count the many intervals one woke up in between to subconciously swallow pills. laters, got ready and went to meet prata to do some grocery shopping before heading back to my place for some song uploading and goodness gracious me.

gym laters, for her > for me. she was literally sweating like a pig after she was done and my foot seemed to have felt the strain and grew a lil' bigger. haha, so anyway, will be going to see the world on one's two feet tomorrow again.

for now, one will attempt to start on my heroes marathon. with coke light, ice lemon tea, curry twisties and cadbury chocolate to accompany me.

staying at home for 24 hours makes me cranky

and whiney.
and grumpy.
and annoyed.
and. and. and...

one has not moved more than 30 footsteps the entire day.
one has been gorging onself non-stop the entire day.
all one can think about is the taka food fair.

sigh.

bigfoot's back

am rewatching bridget jones diary for about the 20th time already.

bridget's depressed cos she just found out daniel cleaver's been cheating on her. i am depressed too. because my left foot's twice the size of my right foot and i can't walk properly. my foot itches and is swollen even the doctor was like "what powerful ants man!", yesyes, ant bites from my sentosa trip yesterday.

so now, one is officially homebound and immensely depressed. we all know i can't stay home for the hours beyond sleeping hours. and now i can't leave the house. damn damn damn. WHY?! had church today, and foot was only 1/3 bigger. afters, went to bugis and town with mich and foot eventually became twice the size. gah!

it's horrible when i wanna go to town everyday cos taka's having a food fair! was orgasming there and then man. i want my yoghurt with boysenberry or banana nut crunch, i want my japanese white chocolate donuts, and my gogo sausages. I WANT EVERYTHING!!! i need to recover, like, now. we totally pigged out today, famous amos and japanese biscuit. yumyum.

so anyway, lester is guilty (he should!) and he's supposed to come visit. boo! i need my yoghurt to cure me of depression. sigh. by the way, i had a funny doctor who was more interested in guessing my age then curing me. his name is lye kitt. do you LIKE IT? HAHAHAHAHAHAH

ok, am going to continue sharing bridget's depression now. byebye

guy friends make just as good friends as girl friends

so last night, i was out with my bff ziluo chilling out at wcp macs, our usual hangout place. we rented tenacious d so we could rewatch it again since we think it's so freaking hilarious that jack black can deactivate lasers with his cock. so it was the usual movie watching over 20 pc nuggets, fries, and 50 cent vanilla cones. yum yum. was a good catch up session, especially since camp just ended and i'm just in the mood for a good movie with snacks to pop.

and today, i met up with lester and we headed down to sentosa to watch a jazz band play cos his friend was in it and he wanted to support him. the ambience and setting was great. mats on the sand, candles as lamps and we just sat cross-legged talking about shit, eating crispy chicken dipped in wasabi mayo and grilled sausages and wedges, along with snapple, laughing over bad singing and discussing the sexuality of one of the waitresses.

during interval, his friends came over and we had a lil' chat. great people, really friendly and chattable. christian who did a solo on the encore piece, and j who ranted about no one giving shit about the baritone player and huffing and puffing whilst gulping down his heineken before returning to play. haha he reminds me of george clooney. lookswise.

afters, we took a stroll in search of cafe del mar, and one had to endure lester's mad antics of insisting i climb up the lifeguard chair because it's supposedly "very thrilling cos we're not supposed to do it". was pissed scared with him pretending to push me off and us attempting to take a pic in bad lighting cos of my sucky phone camera and his lack of a camera (ns men don't use camera phones). anyway, all his idea.

grabbed nz natural ice cream later (yumyum) and then took the monorail back. a lil' stroll arnd vivo to see if there were any good movies worth catching and since there wasn't, home sweet home. :)

the bad picture. we look super gross.




anw, had a convo with my brother on msn and he always makes our relationship out to be incestous. -_-

excerpts:


sherman says:
nope
sherman says:
she got mixed up
sherman says:
u are my darling...
claireybaby says:
she said u said u have a 19 year sister who is called esther
sherman says:
how can i get it wrong

and

sherman says:
gdnite dear
claireybaby says:
night

LOL. WTH.

claire never stays for full camps

yay! one has survived campus crusades for christ! my second camp for the month! 10 claps for me cos it is my own record breaker. think my last record was 0 camps by choice, and prolly the level camp which i was forced to go for.

so anyway, camp was good. in fact, very good. my kinda camp. the kind where you eat a lot, exercise by standing up and singing songs and clapping your hands, and sleeping early at like 10/11. great isn't it? basically it's a get fat camp. very few dirty and exhaustive games unlike biz camp, and definitely no clubbing (duh!).

but seriously, people were nice (genuinely), except for a few minority (which i will refrain from bitching about cos i am trying to be a changed person), sermon and worship was good too. was glad i went. met up with nora, and bumped into yurong.

so anyway, the 2 main highlights of the camp:

the first being shermaine telling me,
shermaine: "you know right, last night, they were sitting down there praying, and then this australian guy saw and then he asked me and my friend :"what are these people doing? they are closing their eyes and concentrating so hard!" "

me: LOL LOL LOL

and the second being, random girl from another group randomly telling me,
random girl (R.G.): "hey you know what? you remind me of paris hilton"
me: "urmmmmm, okayyyyy"
-in my mind i'm like, shit, this is not good. church girl i don't know coming up to me and telling me i remind her of a sex-video-just-came-of-jail-spoilt-brat. greattttttt-
AWKWARD SILENCE
R.G. : "errrr, but i kinda like paris hilton. so is that a good thing or a bad thing?"
me: -grits teeth and forces smile- "heeehhhh...rightttt"
-proceeds to walk away-

oh and the next time she saw me, she pointed to me and shouted "paris hilton!" to her friend. great, i'm paris hilton and i'm invisible too.

other than that, everything else went well. found out it really is a small world and am glad that jeff is in my group. met nice nice new friends too! here's a pic of us!



a very happy and dirty and shagged CG6 courtesy of jeff's camera phone which is 3.2 megapixels. oh, this is minus vanessa and jie hui.

p/s: NUS HAS MCDONALDS!!! almost orgasmed on the spot! hurhur

angel in disguise

warning! this is going to be an emo post.

today, i got home at 6-ish in the morning. i was crying. crying till my eyes were swollen, puffy and bloodshot, until my head throbbed till i could hear the thumping of my head resounding in my ears and till my nose was all blocked, i had to breathe through my mouth.

the funny thing is, i cried over something so small, or something so ironic that in the case of others', it would have been smiles rather than tears. i was waiting for a cab to get home from em's place around 5-ish in the morning cos i wanted to miss peak hour surcharge. em had given me 20 bucks to get back, but i had a feeling it wasn't quite so enough, so we waited for a nets cab.

felt lucky for once, cos we didn't have to wait long for a nets cab, and before i knew it, i was in the cab. and then i saw that there was actually ongoing midnight surcharge which was moving up the meter at a super fast rate. and then i realised something horrible. i left my pouch at em's. so there was no way, no way at all 20 bucks could cover my cab fare. on a normal day, with no extra charge, my cab fare to and fro his place would cost around 21-22 bucks.

i freaked. i called em, over and over, but he didn't pick up. and then i was thinking to myself, shit. God is punishing me. he is punishing me for leaving camp halfway. so there i was, stressed and panicky, exacerbated by 3 days of accumulated lack of sleep. i decided to tell the uncle "uncle, i'm so sorry, i left my pouch over at my friend's place, so i only have 20 bucks on me, so i think you just stop me at harbourfront. and then the uncle said "huh, then how are you going to go home?" so i just mumbled "err, bus i guess.." (though i was highly doubting that, considering i didn't have a single cent on me, or my ez link.

in that instance, i really felt like shit. at my pit's end. i felt like a lost sheep. there wasn't enough energy in me to be calm, rational, or composed. the uncle then replied "nevermind, it's okay, i'll send you home". and that's what did it. i felt so bad, i started bursting into tears. i cried, cried so hard, when em finally picked up his phone, i couldn't talk properly. it was an insurmountable indescribable feeling i could hardly put into words. i felt niceness beyond anything else, i felt grace. i felt God. personfied in the form of an angel. through the taxi driver.

maybe you think i'm exaggerating. but i'm not. that's how i felt. and then the guilt creeped in, all those mean thoughts i had of God a few seconds ago. it just made me cry harder. how can i forget that his grace surpresses everything? as he said "till the very end of the age?". when i was nearing the back gate of my house, i told the uncle to just stop me there cos the cab fare was already 26-27 bucks, and i really felt so bad, i couldn't make him turn in despite all my tiredness and fatigue.

the uncle actually said "are you sure? where you stay? it's so dark i don't think it's safe for you to walk alone, i think i should turn in" (it was genuine concern, something i've never felt from a complete stranger, much less a taxi driver who's supposed to be earning my money to feed his family). at this point of time, it was really too much for me to handle, so i just told him i just stayed there and could go in through the back gate whilst still crying and sucking back tears. the uncle just went "you sure?" to which i nodded over and over.

and then i bowed my head as my angel drove away.

if this isn't God's doing, his grace for me, i don't know what else it was. back home, it took me a good 15 minutes to stop crying. and when i finally did, i did something i haven't done for forever.

i prayed.



and thank you em baby, for volunteering to cab down to pay the uncle back. even though you have school just 2 hours later. and you haven't slept properly the entire night cos of me. love <3

sleep is taking over my life!

gah! i woke up at 4 today! and i didn't even sleep that late! truth be told, i could carry on sleeping forever! as always, was supposed to go down to school, but since one woke up so damn late, no point in going down man.

just sent my em baby off to get his cab. met him around 6-ish and we got dinner and headed back to my area to eat and try to watch movies on my vaio. try is the word cos connection was so bad, family guy kept stalling on us and ultimately, we gave up and tried to rewatch 200 pound beauty again, which couldn't get beyond 15 minutes before my vaio ko-ed and died on us.

urm, speaking of sleep. one wonders how one will manage to wake up tomorrow. have to be at buona vista mrt at 8 20 am so wish me all the best yo. will attempt to try another camp survival guide.

goodbye and pray that i don't die.

yesterday god talked to me

i'm serious. late last night, or make that early this morning, with nothing to do, harry potter in hand with the intention of reading it over for the fourth time, i suddenly thought of campus crusades for christ. the camp that i'm supposed to go for on wed, but which i am still undecided and entirely not hyped up for.

and then i decided to pick up my copy of "40 day purpose driven life" (it's this christian book which -confer from title- which i've never really managed to bring myself to complete, and therefore, am still stuck on day 10 something of the book). so yes anyway, before i opened the book, i said a quick mental prayer to god that if today's chapter had any sign that i should go for camp, i would indeed go for it.

and lo and behold, i flipped the page to where i last finished reading (which was a long long time ago and thus had to use the aid of a bookmark) and what i saw was "A PLACE TO BELONG". basically, the entire chapter is about being part of the christian body, be it in a church or what, with full active participation. and there you have it, if it wasn't god speaking to me, i don't know what was. so one is now 3/4 mentally prepared to go for camp.

today, i woke up late, missed rag, and then headed down to hbf with the intention of updating my pdl. turns out, no post office there so wasted trip and decided not to go for driving tom since one doesn't have one's pdl anyway, so really, no point. laters, i met up with part of the og for dinner in town, 8 of us: jeff, francine, zavier, liyang, nicholas, jelene, samantha and i, and we totally pigged out at crystal jade man.

oodles of main courses, plus lots of great yummylicious dishes. there was this particular dish that jeff ordered which was super good. it's called "san jiu ji" something about chicken being soaked in 3 special sauces and it was great. the salted fish fried rice francine got was super duper good too.

laters, we shopped for jun kiat's birthday present and finally got him a ty monkey that resembled him in terms of colour and hair at nicholas's toy shop. we even bought disney cards each to give him. haha lucky guy. jeff bought him an 80 buck adidas tee.

anw, one had to go back alone cos the rest of them are east siders. gah! hates it. can't wait for them to hurry move into their halls so i'll have company to go home next time.

donations anyone? :(

guest is over, but i am a very impolite host

guest in question would be michelle rose lee. who stole my very creative line of "save the earth. eat a boy" for her msn nick. impolite host would be me. cos i'm blogging whilst she's here but then again, not like she really cares cos she's busy on my mac watching 28 weeks later and flirting with guys on msn. the perks of having 2 comps in your room. :)

went back to gmc today. and i made gabe accompany me for 2nd service despite the fact he only came home at 5 in the morning. thanks gabe! my aunty made it sound really incestuous by telling my mother "gabe is coming for 2nd service because he wants to be with claire" (nice) and this is right at the entrance of church.

afters, gabe and i went down to vivo and had lunch at thai express. very nice. tau hu tod! green curry! and super duper nice thai ice teas (i can taste the roses, i swear!). had shitlaughs and giggles over china people, moles, grandmothers and what-have-you-not.

laters, he went for rich man's sport which ordinary people like me can't afford, that being, golf and i met mich. we went down to raffles and marina later to get her golden slippers and now we're back at my place doing our own thang after stuffing ourselves silly with millions of tidbits we invested in. we are officially 10 million times heavier than before. sigh

okay, we are both having blocked noses now. result of rain and air con.

she's spying. gotta go!

i am a lovesick puppy

i am blogging again. because i feel loved.

em baby is being very ultra sweet to me, so sweet that if it were someone else who was telling me that it was her boyfriend, i will tell her to shut the fuck up and go get a room already.

i asked em baby why he's being so nice to me. and his reply was "because i love you". awwww!

and all this is after i am being mean for the past few days, despite enduring my constant punches, pinchings and abusive tendencies, and the fact that i never seem appreciative of anything he does.

I LOVE YOU EM BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! <3 <3 <3

you know how much i love you?
em baby > gold razor (that's how much) :)

am currently contactable, penniless and fat

yes, am contactable once again, so pretty please, give me all your numbers again. got myself a shitty phone today. a freakin' pink razor cos that's all i can afford. now will truly be declared ah lian of the highest order with stark bright pink phone to match my label. great isn't it?

as a result, have spent my entire allowance, so will be broke for the entire month. am 60 bucks in debt to my beloved emerick. maybe i should look on the bright side cos as one will be eating air for the rest of the entire month, will therefore become skinny and hopefully happier.

stuffed myself silly today. consider this my last supper. sotong balls, kaya balls from chilli padi (v. nice!), rojak, chicken cutlet, hot chocolate, and the list goes on...gah! am prolly 10 million kg heavier now.

after em baby sent me home, i met auggie aug aug up at wcp macs for a very short chillout session since he has to wake up bright and early tomorrow and needs his beauty sleep. drinks over lame jokes, random chit-chat on the present and future and whatever not.

am very lazy to go on blogging.



and just fyi, i love the earth so much, i made an effort to wear green today and urm, will prolly wear green tomorrow too. save the earth people!!!

i need a million four leaf clovers to bring me luck

today is officially the most unlucky day of my life ever. EVER!!!!

urm, let's see, i lost my handphone. again. my second one of the year. and this time, it's my gold razor. i discover this when i'm seated at manhattan fish market. YES, manhattan fish market. just when i feel so damn lucky cos i only waited for 5 minutes on a friday night to be seated, i realise my hp's gone and before i even get to smell the manhattan fish platter, i'm tearing my eyes out and running to the arcade.

on top of this, this has to happen when i'm pissed broke and can't afford to get myself another phone. cos one has happily spent one's allowance on shopping and thus cannot use this month's pay to pay for phone. oh! and when one had indonesian food for dinner and decided to add veggies, they ran out of veggies during my turn. MY TURN! the person in front of me had to order 2 portions of veggies and deprive me of the last portion. great isn't it?!

on a very random note, i bumped into a lot of people today. alien and her latest guy, francine, yiwen, zavier, jeff and his girlfriend and yada-yada. one bought lots of tidbits of carrefour to cheer oneself up and one has already eaten half of it. oh! one finally ate yami yoghurt today. so expensive and not worth it. sigh, really unlucky bad day.

okay, am too depressed to blog anymore but on a happier note, auggie aug aug says he's dropping by later to lend me a spare phone. yay!

back to leon lai, shu qi and daniel wu for now.

what you expect is what you least expect to expect

remember the programme list i had in mind yesterday? that was what i was expecting. and in the end, none of those expectations ever materialised. bah. shall return to one's motto of expecting nothing.

my late afternoon was spent with mich at vivo and harboufront, walking aimlessly round shops with no intention of buying anything, getting munchies the whole time and getting stalked by disgusting uncle who has no self-pride, embarrassment, or a mirror for that matter.

was supposed to go to get my planet fitness membership with the prata, but instead of getting skinnier, ended up binge eating the entire day cos the prata did not come. after much calling on mine and the alien's part, only to be picked up by prata's mother who said she was really sick, being prata's best friend, one knows that when prata says she's sick, it's more of feigning sick, and so me and the alien decided to pop by and give her a surprise visit. (no more manhattan fish market boohoo)

true enough, the asshole was pretending to be sick and even got her mother to lie for her. tut tut. to think we even bought her loacker as a get well present haha. so anyway, waited for her to shower before we headed down to canadian pizza for a chillout session. we had tandoori chicken and hawaiian. loved the tandoori chicken! am currently feeling very horrendously fat now cos have eaten non-stop the entire day. 4 ginormous slices of pizzas for us each (2 for 1 remember?)

pics of the day:



this is us making fools of ourselves at canadian pizza



me&prata



OMG THIS IS THE COOLESS PIC EVAR! i only realised the aptness of the signboard when i uploaded the pics!!!



i made them pose for stupid pics whilst waiting for the cab



and they loveee it!

and finally,



prata's very ugly dog

freedom of speech only exists in america

i had the most interesting day today.

i woke up, booked my lesson slots for my french modules, went for driving after yonks, hit a couple of kerbs, had my instructor agree with me that my driving is really shitty, went back home, switched on the air con, had the longest nap ever which i haven't had for the longest time ever, woke up again, watched the tv for 3 hours, and then watched the hills have eyes 2 online.

the hills have eyes 2 has 1 more survivor than its prequel. okay, random. and there was a super nice mutant this time round. even more random.

hopefully, tomorrow will be a more interesting day since i do have more stuff up on my programme list. planet fitness, the long awaited manhattan fish market, yada yada.

au revoir!

an early start signifies an early end

one woke up bright and early today to go for health check up with xiuli at nus. so far, so good. one's results did not show foetus, crazy weight and as for tumors, am not so sure yet cos one did not stay for chest x ray. one is 161 cm hurrah! grew 2 cm and am splendidly happy with oneself. :) if you're wondering about the weight, it's 42 ok. (and i know i am fat) got hounded by sci fact pple who assumed we would want to join their sci camp. like wtf?! lol am soooo lazy to go back for chest x ray though.

laters, had lunch with liyang, yiwen and zavier at vivo's marche. my first time! yum yum. hell lot of food. rosti, ham&cheese crepe, half a roast chicken and i had a bite of liyang's red snapper which was super darn fresh. that guy is madly in love with fish man. family produce fishballs, come out also eat fish. lol anyway, had a ride back with them later cos liyang drove and the three of them went back to school to help out for rag.

went back home for a lil' while to discover my f21 poodle tank mailed to me (yay!) and immediately changed into it then waited for my bff to come get me in a cab and then we headed down to holland v to get gabe to have a chillout session together. dinner at nydc, and desert at the new ice cream place afters which by the way, had a cool concept but was overpriced and tasted horrible. ziluo bumped into his p school friend over there. lots of jokes, shitlaughs and giggles and gayism on their part.

gah! am super lazy to go into detail but overall i had a fun day. :)



the two gay and very happy men



tomato & radish

today is townday

met up with mich my bitch today after a week of not meeting up and she had oodle loads of camp stories to share. the bitch had a great time at arts camp and one is really happy for her cos she is not also no longer social pariah in fass so hurrah for her! and in all her camp spirit, give her 3 cheers y'all.

the usual routine for us, town and then bugis, cos we cover both so damn quickly. i swore off spending any more money or i'll be eating ants on the table for the rest of the month but i couldn't resist temptation and bought myself a jumper. boohoo. will wear it everyday to make myself happy as its usefulness will be maximised and one will feel that one did not waste one's money and has put it to good use. :)

ooohhh! guess what? one got accepted for french lpp! yay am now 1/3 way to being in the land of crossaints, baguettes, quiches, and french people. i am good in french. voulez vou cou chez avec moi anybody? whoever said that watching movies was a waste of time? moulin rouge has proven itself to be a very useful education medium.

so anyway, one will be up bright and early tomorrow for the long postponed medical check up at school. pray and hope one doesn't come back with medical results stating that one is 100 kg, has 3 cancerous stage 3 tumors and a 2 mth foetus in belly. if so, one would have endured camp for nothing cos one will not qualify for studies in nus and also not go to france (thus, all the hype for nothing, and nothing would be nada or zilch in french lol).

yay. 3 cheers for claire!

all the elation & joy has henceforth evaporated

my 2nd post of the day. and this would tell you why i'm immensely depressed. this is bad, bad, bad! i should have known it was going to be a very horrible day from the very moment i woke up. look on the bright side? there is NO bright side. join me on the dark side though. we even have jackets. gah!

am going to list bad happenings one by one:

1. it started with that very disturbing dream

2. woke up to find pretty checkered ear stud broken on 1 side. and i just bought it 2 days back! fuck!

3. woke up earlier with the intention of attending the 230 service at new crea, even cabbed down but had stupid jap kids steal my cab from in front, had to wait for like 30 minutes for a cab under the freakin' hot sun

4. ended up attending the 5 pm service in the end

5. wasn't exactly having a great day with the boyfriend

6. couldn't stop binge eating the entire day

7. found out one can't withdraw from camp cos no refunds given and MM will kill me

8. and the biggest horror of horrors happened just 10 minutes ago but i can't share it with you or you will gloat

sigh. am depressed. forever

this will teach me never again to leave 3/4 way through service, to gloat and induce envy, or tell people to be jealous. boo hoo i need to cry now

sometimes i hate myself for doing this to you

NOT!

lol one has krispy kremes all the way from AUSTRALIA (yes, all the way from AUSTRALIA, not the shitty hongkong ones) thanks to auggie aug aug! thanks again! :) they really really made my day. did you know? they seriously melt in your mouth, like instantly, and then the icing rolls off your tongue and slides down your throat, along with the fluffy soft dough...(haha i should stop) and they're in the best flavour ever! original glaze!!! this is truly an orgasmic experience yo'.

church today with em baby and dinner at my place laters with the usual sunday granny's cooking and a movie to watch. oh and before i forget, here's a pic from tata's and my excursion yesterday! oh and did i tell you, i joined the NDP best friends contest! ($6000 is too great for me to resist) so cross your fingers and hope i win! then i can fly to aussie and bring you some krispy kremes!



on a totally random note, i had a rather disturbing dream last night. why?
sigh.

and just to cheer myself up, BE JEALOUS! lol